Thoughts Away From The Game: My Sembreak and What's To Come

This past sembreak indeed was a quick one. First, I want to thank God for giving me the opportunity to rest my body and spend time with the ones I love most dearly. I spent my sembreak quite differently this time. On the first several days, I spent it with my Father going out and learning the family business. There I was able to see first hand what my family does to get me in the position am I right now and for that I am truly grateful. Afterwards, I picked my brother from the airport after the Energen RP Youth U-16 National Team's stint in Vietnam. I was able to hear the great experience my brother had abroad and hopefully learn from it. (I hope I get to make a blog about it.) I was also able to go to Tagaytay with my family on two different day trips! Affected by a virus, I had LBM. It didn't feel all too good but as I reflect, God gave me the opportunity to rest my weary body. 

Instead of telling you guys about my so-called "unique" sembreak, I would want to reflect on everything before all hell breaks lose tomorrow. 

Our destiny is something already etched in stone; an inevitable event precedented beforehand. Our effort could possibly change the outcome but that is highly improbable. Destiny is something that takes it course. You just really have to embrace it or forever live in despair. Tomorrow, I receive arguably the biggest test in my life, the Science Quarterly Exam on Chemisry. 

I accept the fact that I am really not exceptionally good in Science nor adequate. I judge myself as someone horrible in the subject. Someone to this very day that has difficulty understanding the basic principles and concepts behind the Periodic Table. My grades in Science are dismal; flaunting a borderline passing grade. That isn't me. 

Thinking aside, the main debate is whether or not we should use a positive or negative outlook on things.  Do we have an optimistic attitude, always hoping for the best or should we have a pessimistic attitude and always prepare for the worse? To me, the latter is better. To me, it is much better to accept your shortcomings and limitations and do what is best to improve. (Honestly, I am not the best person to ask in topics such as these. I really do have a negative outlook on things.)

My faith is sealed. It cannot be changed or altered. The only think I can do is ask the Lord for acceptance. I ask him that His will be done and I humbly accept whatever score I "worked" for. The only think I can do now is to brace for the worse. The anticipation is always the worse feeling but I do hope that justice can be done.