Thoughts Away From The Game

I haven't posted in a while on the blog since this week was our Quarterly Test. True to its name, this brought about a sleepless night plus a very early morning. Today, we had Social Science and Science. I really had no problems in Social Science since all the information was written already down on the questionnaire and you would just have to base your answers from there and/or add the information you took up in class. 

But Science was a totally different story. 

I spent almost the entire night studying for 40% of my grade. I even took the initiative to wake up at 4:30 just to study it again. I was confident but not over confident with my ability to at  least get a decent score. Once I saw Gian Fernando, who was seated 5 seats in front of me, giving me a look, I knew I had to prepare for the worst. As I got my questionnaire and answer sheet, I immediately wrote down all that I knew regarding all the Science topics we discussed for the First Quarter so as to not forget them. Going through the multiple choice, I was able to answer the questions. As I was approaching the 20s, my mind went blank. I wouldn't say it just blacked out for some reason but I guess you all know the feeling that you know the answer but you can't seem to locate it or put it into words. That was what I felt. Approaching the short answer portion of the Quarterly Test, there and then I knew I was bound to fail. It seemed like my teacher didn't teach anything like this or maybe I was just reluctant to listen. Throw in the fact that I hate bad grammar because I suck at comprehending what people are trying to say, the test had it all. 

I am bound to fail, I hope I do not. I am not afraid of failing because failure is what keeps us all humble. It also makes us strive more to work hard so as to never experience it again although failure in school is totally a different thing. 

When one fails a subject, a test, or a quarterly test, you feel extremely bad. You are disappointed without measure. Disappointment dominates your entire being and you are angry at yourself. I am the kind of person who never uses excuses although when I was younger I used to blame everybody for MY mistakes. 

This too shall pass. This gives me hope for a better tomorrow and that God has a purpose for this. We shouldn't be afraid to fail but school says otherwise. It challenges us to continue to work harder and do our very best.